Happy Monday, dear friends!
As promised in my last post, here is my post explaining why I stepped back for a bit and took a break from blogging and Instagram.
As you know, Ben and I bought our first house this summer! So so exciting!! We closed on August 10th, and have now been living in our new house for a little over a month. It is SO FUN owning our very own home! We have been so so busy unpacking and getting things set up, so THAT has been keeping me extremely busy.
Ben is an avid bow hunter, and so he went to Idaho to go hunting for elk for two weeks. During that time, James and I went to stay at my parents' house on Lake Washington. We had the best time playing in the lake and swimming and relaxing. But we missed Ben terribly.
Needless to say, the past couple of months have been a whirlwind...the whole summer has been, really! A beautiful, exciting whirlwind of joy, love, relaxation, hard work, and contemplation.
And it began to feel like Instagram, blogging, all of the effort for PERFECT social media posts and new blog content was just detracting from my beautiful REAL life outside of the online space.
Between packing up and cleaning our old house, unpacking and moving into our NEW house, visiting my parents for two weeks, and working on some fun projects behind the scenes (more on this soon!!), I have been so so so fulfilled and busy. I honestly just haven't had the time to blog or spend effort on getting the perfect Instagram picture with the most witty caption. :)
The truth is, I have been realizing more and more that this...this blog...Instagram...online space...this is not real life. This is a PART of my life, and a part that I really enjoy and love. But it's not LIFE.
There was a moment where I was rocking my sweet boy to sleep...I looked down at his precious face, and I realized in that moment that THAT is real life. The moments with loved ones. The precious time with my baby boy, watching him grow and learn...being present with him, with my husband, with my family...investing quality time into my relationships... reading a book for fun, rather than scrolling through Instagram or planning out posts....
I came to a point where my REAL life was so full, so busy, so beautiful...my son is growing SO fast...time is going by so quickly...our precious time with loved ones is so fleeting and so so important... And I began to realize that all of the time being poured into Instagram and to my blog was leaving me feeling unfulfilled and like I was never enough. I was addicted to the instant gratification of 'Likes' and staging the perfect photo. I was overwhelmed by feeling like I HAD to crank out blog posts, when really...all I wanted was to just relax, not go online or feel like I HAD to go online, and be able to just BE IN THE MOMENT. Really cherish the time with my dear loved ones. Really enjoy a good novel and go to bed early rather than feeling like I HAD to keep up on Instagram or stress over not getting a blog post up in awhile. I wanted to be able to fully enjoy real life, and for that very reason, I needed a break from this online space.
I NEEDED TO STEP BACK.
I still checked in every once in awhile on Instagram. I still brainstormed ideas for posts, and of course, I still continued work on my brand partnerships and for my clients and my projects. But I stepped back from the need to post something every day....to keep up...to FORCE myself to create content.
As an artist and a creative, being FORCED to create just doesn't work. My work has to flow organically. The pressure makes me have writer's block...it makes me retreat and withhold my ideas. I had to step back to re-set, re prioritize, and re center.
It was the BEST thing I could have done. I have blogged before about taking a break from social media (read the post here) and this extended break was such a good thing for my soul, for my mind, for my anxiety (which I'll share more about in an upcoming post) and for my creativity.
Life has calmed down a bit. We're settled in the house, Ben is home from hunting, and life is slowing down ever so slightly. I am diving back into blogging with a better mind set, better priorities, and a more clear vision of what type of message and content I want to present to the world. You guys ...my friends who have followed my journey, who follow my blog, who follow along on Instagram...you mean the world to me! I missed you all and our daily interactions, but it was such a nice break to step away from the online world for a bit. Thank you for understanding and for sticking with me!
Anyways, I hope this made sense! It's sort of hard to articulate...Have you ever felt like you just needed to take a break from social media?? Like social media and the online world has gotten a bit unsatisfying and like it leaves you feeling unfulfilled or like you aren't doing enough?? Let me know in the comments below, I'd love to hear your take on this!