Mommy Monday: 33 weeks pregnant with number two!

33 weeks! Yay! Getting so close!!

So, I have a new symptom this past week that I did NOT have with James. It is excruciating hip/pelvis pain...definitely NOT labor pain or contractions or anything. It's like...joint/nerve pain in my groin and hips and pelvis and it is SOOO PAINFUL. When it "flares up" I can't even really walk and it takes my breath away.

Now, before I get scolded for not going to my doctor, let me reiterate: this is NOT labor pain or contractions. Trust me I'm sure of that. It's definitely pain from everything loosening up, and pressure being put on my pelvis and nerves. And I have my next appointment with my doctor next week, so I will definitely talk to her about it then. But I'm sure there is probably nothing to be done about it, because I've done some research and it sounds like this is something that some women have during the last bit of pregnancy and you just have to ride it out. It's ROUGH though!

Have any of you experienced this during pregnancy?? Any tips?

These days, I am just so achey and exhausted and I haven't been working out - I do go for walks pushing James in the stroller about 4-5 days a week and I usually go 2-3 miles. But, other than that I have been just giving everything I have to stay awake and to keep the house from becoming a total disaster. This whole pelvis pain has not been making it any easier!

BUT, there is the occasional day where I feel full of energy and strong, and today was one of those days, and you better believe I took advantage! I got so much cleaning done AND I got in a prenatal booty workout from Knocked Up Fitness (click here for the prenatal workout program I'm doing)

Ok, that's all for this week! At my doctor's appointment next week I'll be scheduling my final ultrasound and my cerclage removal...things are getting real, guys!! I'll for sure update you guys when I have all the details!

Here's this week's survey:

How far along: 33 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up nearly 30 lbs as of my last appointment 3.5 weeks ago.

Maternity clothes? Yes!

Stretch marks? Lots! All above and around my belly button.

Sleep: Definitely experiencing more insomnia, and when I DO sleep, getting up around five times during the night to pee!

Best moment this week: As I put James to bed the other night, he kept giving me the hugest hugs and kisses and holding me so tight. He wouldn’t let me leave. I finally laid my head down on his bed beside him to try to help him fall asleep and he stroked my face and arms and hair for 15 minutes just staring at me. I finally left him, and within 5 minutes I got a text from my husband. His office is right next door to James’ bedroom. His text said: “He’s singing. Sounds like it’s about you.” I LOST IT. Like ugly crying so hard. Because how in the world did I get so blessed as to be loved SO much, so purely by that sweet little human? I swear, motherhood will rip you to your core, humble you, and make you ache in the BEST way possible. I can’t imagine how my heart could possibly grow any more without bursting! But I know somehow it certainly will and that both scares and thrills me.

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: So much! :)

Food cravings: Apple Jacks!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, I'm huge! People are frequently telling me I look like I'm going to explode. It's lovely.

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button in or out? Mostly out.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty happy! But definitely moody/sensitive/cranky...etc...

Symptoms: Pelvis/hip/groin pain, leg cramps at night, frequent peeing, heart burn, light-headed, out of breath, THIRSTY, hungry all the time, stretch marks, spider veins, EMOTIONAL, hormonal, feet starting to hurt if I stand on them too long, tired, achey...

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Mommy Monday: 32 weeks pregnant with number two!

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Hi friends!

I don't know about where you are, but it has been HOT here! I mean, I'm probably way more sensitive to the heat than most PLUS I'm very pregnant... but I'm kind of miserable! haha I feel like I can hardly function - hence the lack of new blog posts! But, I do have some really fun content planned for the upcoming weeks, INCLUDING the much requested Cleaning Schedule and some cool collaborations, so definitely keep checking back!

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This past weekend was a very busy one, packed with social activities for James! We went blueberry picking with friends again on Saturday, and then on Sunday we went to another of James' friend's second birthday party! It was a fun weekend!

Yesterday, I posted on Instagram (@annamcohenblog) and Facebook a picture and a whole thing about my experience with trying to breastfeed James. The feedback was so incredible. So many women shared their similar stories, feelings, experiences, and words of encouragement and love. It was so beautiful and I'm so thankful for all of you!

Come find this picture on my Instagram to read the post!   Click here

Come find this picture on my Instagram to read the post! Click here

As far as my pregnancy goes, I'm feeling great! Thank the Lord! Still no issues, or concerns, or problems or anything at all! Aside from feeling huge, and from my lungs and organs being compressed - I'm feeling really well and I couldn't be more thankful!!

We set up the baby's bassinet this weekend (or should I say, Ben did) and it is so exciting to start getting his little area in our bedroom ready for him!

Click here for the bassinet we are using this time around

Ok, here's this week's survey:

How far along: 32 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up nearly 30 lbs as of my last appointment 2.5 weeks ago.

Maternity clothes? Yes!

Stretch marks? All around/above my belly button. Getting more and more every day...marks of this beautiful gift of being able to carry two sons!

Sleep: It's been ok!

Best moment this week: Blueberry picking with James and our friends, doing the "baby shark" dance that James learned at his friend's birthday party - Ben, James, and I danced around the kitchen blasting the song and it was just such a happy wonderful fun moment that I'll remember forever. I love my sweet family!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: So much! :)

Food cravings: Everything, haha and also nothing. Very confusing. So hungry, but also my stomach is being squished so can't eat that much!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, I'm huge!

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button in or out? Mostly out, but the top is still sticking out a bit more than the bottom!

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty happy! But definitely moody/sensitive/cranky...etc...

Symptoms: Leg cramps at night, frequent peeing, heart burn, light-headed, out of breath, THIRSTY, hungry all the time, stretch marks, spider veins, EMOTIONAL, hormonal, feet starting to hurt if I stand on them too long, tired, achey, and I officially waddle now. haha

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Mommy Monday: 30 weeks pregnant with number two!

'I Get Paid In Hugs And Kisses' mug c/o   True Life Threads   - my favorite mug!!   Click here for the mug

'I Get Paid In Hugs And Kisses' mug c/o True Life Threads - my favorite mug!! Click here for the mug

Ok, this is two days late...sorry! This past weekend was so busy with James' 2nd birthday party (post will be going up about that later!)! Then this week has been sooo hot and I honestly have just been barely able to even function!

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So, again, this will be a quick post!

Friday, I had my doctor's appointment and all is well! I found out a few interesting things:

  • I will have one more ultrasound at around 35 weeks to check the baby's position before having my cerclage removed. So excited to get to see baby boy one more time before he arrives out in the world!!
  • My cerclage is coming out between 36 and 37 weeks. Instead of my OB removing it, I will go back to the MFM doctor who put it in because she likes to do her own cerclage removals.
  • My OB thinks that this baby will come shortly after my cerclage is removed at around 37 weeks. They thought this with James too, but he stayed put until they stripped my membranes and broke my water at 39 weeks 4 days, so who knows! But exciting to think that baby boy could be here in less than 7 weeks, potentially!!

I've been getting SO many leg cramps in the night - a symptom I did not have with James. They are seriously the worst...so so painful!! And there's nothing that can be done about them, aaaaahhh!! haha Oh well!

And I have officially hit the mark in this pregnancy where I do not feel cute any more, haha. I just feel big, and cumbersome, and uncomfortable. BUT obviously still so thankful for such a wonderful, easy pregnancy. I'm still savoring every moment of this pregnancy because it is most likely my last and it is such a beautiful experience. But, just keeping it real here - I'm uncomfortable and feel BIG. haha

A little transformation! Right around when I got pregnant, 16 weeks, 30 weeks!

A little transformation! Right around when I got pregnant, 16 weeks, 30 weeks!

One more thing: at the risk of sounding so cliche and overly sensitive, I've just gotta say how annoying it is when MEN feel the need to comment on how big I am! haha I mean, what is with that?? At James' birthday party alone, three different MEN made comments like "wow, you're getting BIG!" and "Whoa! When are you due again?" and "You're plump!" and "You're so funny how you eat when you're pregnant - if a cookie goes missing I'm gonna say it was you!" ...haha I mean....right? Isn't that odd?! Why would a man feel that it is appropriate at all to comment on a woman's weight or appearance in a condescending or rude way like that? I'm obviously able to laugh about it, but I'm just emotional enough that it actually really bothered me and made me feel a bit self conscious. Which is probably really ridiculous of me, but also...not. Because, HOW RUDE!! haha I mean, women don't make those kinds of comments!! Am I alone here in thinking this is ridiculous? HA Anyways, rant over!! :)

Ok, onto this week's survey!

How far along: 30 weeks 4 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up nearly 30 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes!

Stretch marks? All around/above my belly button.

Sleep: Not great!

Best moment this week: James' 2nd birthday party and watching him have so much fun, surrounded by friends and family who love him! I can't believe my sweet baby boy is TWO!!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: So much! :)

Food cravings: Fruit and doughnuts :) and pasta!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, I'm ginormous! haha

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Lots of Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button in or out? The top part is out, the bottom part is in. Looks like this may just be the situation for the entirety of the pregnancy, haha

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Mostly happy this week! But SO emotional and sensitive as well, haha

Symptoms: Leg cramps, heart burn, light-headed, out of breath, THIRSTY, hungry all the time stretch marks, spider veins, EMOTIONAL, hormonal, feet starting to hurt if I stand on them too long.

Thanks for reading and following along on this journey each week! I'm so thankful for each of you!

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Mommy Monday: 29 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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This is going to be a quick little update because:

1. Today was busy and it's currently after 10:30pm and I'm TIRED.

2. There isn't all that much to report! Which is GOOD! Still an uneventful pregnancy!

This past week I washed all of the newborn clothes and got my hospital bag *pretty* much packed! So exciting! I still need to add a few things in like toiletries, snacks, chargers, etc...

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On Saturday, we took James to ride/see/meet Thomas the Train! It was our birthday present to him (a week early) and it was such a fun experience! James loved riding on the train! So thankful for this sweet family of mine!

Tomorrow is Ben's and my 10 year wedding anniversary! <3 I'm planning on getting a special post up here tomorrow for it, so check back! Then on Wednesday, it's Ben's 30th birthday! Such an exciting week! :)

I have a doctor's appointment on Friday, so next Monday I'll have more updates for you guys!

Here's this week's survey:

How far along: 29 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up 19.4 lbs as of last appointment. Will update this next Monday, as I'll be weighed at my appointment on Friday!

Maternity clothes? Yes! Just got some more of these maternity t-shirts which are the best thing  ever! Click here for t-shirts

Stretch marks? All around/above my belly button.

Sleep: Getting up like 5 times per night to pee, but other than that really well!

Best moment this week: Watching James on his first train ride, sitting on his daddy's lap!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: All the time!! :) Love this active little boy!

Food cravings: Fruit and doughnuts :)

Anything making you queasy or sick: No.

Have you started to show yet: Yes! At that point where I'm like... how could I get bigger? 11 weeks left!! I'm scared! haha

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Lots of Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button in or out? The top part is out, the bottom part is in. Still.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Mostly happy this week!

Symptoms: Leg cramps, heart burn, light-headed, out of breath, THIRSTY, hungry all the time stretch marks, spider veins, EMOTIONAL, hormonal, feet starting to hurt if I stand on them too long. Same as last week, nothing new really!

I never cease to appreciate the fact that I"m having such a smooth pregnancy this time around! So thankful!

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Mommy Monday: 25 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Happy Monday!

I'm feeling so incredibly thankful this evening!

Here are a few things making me feel so so blessed:

  • An uneventful, normal, run-of-the-mill pregnancy and healthy, growing baby
  • My sweet little James
  • Ben getting safely home from London
  • My amazing parents
  • My grandparents
  • My loyal, gentle little old dog
  • My beautiful garden
  • My home
  • My health

What are YOU feeling grateful for right now?

This is going to be a rather boring Mommy Monday update. Not much to report, other than the fact that I'm quickly turning into a hormonal, emotional wreck! :p

James and I spent a night at my parents' house this weekend because Ben was in London for school. It was so nice being able to play in the lake and be with my dad on Father's Day! But we missed Ben terribly! It's so good to have him home!

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I swear, James is growing up so quickly right before my eyes. Every morning when we wake up he looks bigger and seems more grown up to me. It's going so fast, slow down!!

My belly is growing, my stretch marks are multiplying, my feet are starting to hurt, and my back is a little achey, and baby boy number two is kicking up a storm. It's the absolute best. :)

I have my next doctor's appointment in one week, so I'll have lots of updates and stuff for you guys in next Monday's post. I'm having my glucose test and my rhogam shot, so stay tuned for all of that!

Here's this week's survey:

How far along: 25 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up 19 lbs so far as of my last appointment. Will update this after my next appointment!

Maternity clothes? Yes! Pretty much exclusively, at this point!

Stretch marks? Yes, all around my belly button!

Sleep: It's been ok!

Best moment this week: Surprising my grandpa on Father's Day!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: So much!!

Food cravings: Fruit!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No.

Have you started to show yet: Yes!

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? The top part it out, the bottom part is in. haha

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Emotional!

Symptoms: Light-headed, out of breath, thirsty, hungry, stretch marks, spider veins, feet feeling really sore and burning by the end of the day.

Thanks for reading, and thank you, as always for your continued prayers for a safe, healthy pregnancy, labor, and delivery!

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Mommy Monday: 23 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Happy Monday! Less than one week until viability - WOOHOO!!

That was SUCH a huge goal/landmark/accomplishment when I was pregnant with James, and even though this pregnancy isn't scary or high risk, it still feels great to be almost at that critical point!!

This has been a really great week...time spent with friends, quality family time, a doctor's appointment to hear the heartbeat, etc...it's just been a good one! :)

I'll keep this brief, but some highlights from the past week have been:

-A bbq playdate with James' friends from music class

-Family day at Ben's work and getting to see the building he works in

-A doctor's appointment and checking in on little man numero dos

-Taking James to his first play and him scooching his way up to the very front... he loved it!

-Family walk over the weekend

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My dress was sent to me by a company called Beachcoco and it is the COMFIEST, prettiest maternity dress. I love it A LOT. You can click here to get the dress ... it comes in 14 different colors and is under $25!

Here is this week's survey (and yes, I finally have a weight gain number for you this week haha):

How far along: 23 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss: Up 19 lbs so far

Maternity clothes? Yes! Like this dress, for example: click here

Stretch marks? Yes, all around my belly button!

Sleep: James is waking up at around 5am these days...so that's not ideal. haha But I'm sure it's just a phase...RIGHT!?!?!?!?

Best moment this week: Seeing James having so much fun and making new friends at the play this morning! He is so much fun and so confident and SO sweet! I just love him!!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Yes, a lot!

Food cravings: Savory things! Pasta, cheesey things, gravy, meat...

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really! Thankfully!

Have you started to show yet: Yes, getting bigger and bigger by the day!

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out still... haha

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy AND veeerrrryyyyy moody. haha I alternate between so serene and happy and pleasant, and then a cranky raging grouch. So, it's been fun.

Symptoms: Hungry aaalll the time, shortness of breath, thirsty, tired. Not too intense in the symptoms department, which I'm thankful for!!

Thanks for reading and for following along on this journey!

OH! Before I go: Ben and I are now leaning towards having the boys share a room. We'll have the new baby sleep in our room in the Snoo for the first three to six months. But after that, we're thinking of just moving the baby right into James' room. Any other parents have experience with a toddler and a baby sharing a bedroom/any tips? Thanks in advance!

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Mommy Monday: 22 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

My USA shirt:  ILY Couture  (  click here for the shirt  ) // James' USA sweatshirt:  Old Navy  (  click here for the sweatshirt  )

Hi everyone! Happy Tuesday!

Sorry that no post went up yesterday, but I took the day off due to Memorial Day. I just wanted to take a moment to say how incredibly thankful I am for the men and women who have given their lives to defend our great nation and to protect our freedom. Their sacrifice will never be forgotten or taken for granted.

I just finished reading The Nightingale which was really really good! I definitely recommend it. You can get the book here. But I was in tears for a lot of it because I just kept thinking about how blessed I am to live in the United States of America, where I am free and safe and have plenty of food and clean water and where my children can grow up safe and with endless possibilities ahead of them. The book really made me realize how good we have it.

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Ok, now onto the point of this post! I'm 22 weeks pregnant and still feeling great! I'm trying to think if there is anything new at all since last week as far as my symptoms go or anything...but there really isn't!

Something really exciting, though! Ben was finally able to feel the baby kick! I'm so glad! It's such a special thing and I'm really happy that he was able to feel the baby at last!

I have my monthly appointment with my OB tomorrow. I can't wait to hear little man's heartbeat! These appointments are always so short - about 10 minutes or less, haha. But I always love checking in and hearing that my little boy is doing well!

I did want to share these maternity tank tops with you guys ...they are SO COMFORTABLE! They are also very affordable. I sized up one size and they are just absolutely my favorite thing right now - so comfortable!! Click here for the tank tops.

Wearing   the tank top   in this picture!   Click here for the tank top  &nbsp; - comes in so many different colors!

Wearing the tank top in this picture! Click here for the tank top  - comes in so many different colors!

Alright, here's this week's survey:

How far along: 22 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss:  I have lost track, but I'll be weighed at my appointment tomorrow so I'll update you in next Monday's blog post!

Maternity clothes? Yes! The comfiest!

Stretch marks? Yes, all around my belly button!

Sleep: It's ok! James has been waking up pretty early in the morning and I'm not good about going to bed early, so it's been a bit rough. But not too bad!

Best moment this week: Ben feeling the baby kick for the first time! And watching James and Ben play out in the backyard together this weekend.

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: A lot! It's really picked up in the past week!

Food cravings: Savory things! Pasta, cheesey things, gravy, meat...

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, getting big!

Gender: Boy!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out still.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! I was reeeaallly moody last week though! Like...CRANKY. haha

Symptoms: My restless leg has gotten better, thank goodness!! Starving all the time! Fatigued muscles...like, walking up the stairs makes my legs feel like they are going to fall off. haha

That's all for now! Still keeping up with my Knocked Up Fitness Prenatal Workouts, although definitely not every day. I'm really listening to my body and just doing what feels right...which has meant a lot of rest days. :) Click here for the prenatal program!

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Mommy Monday: 21 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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My kimono is from Pinkblush - they have so many cute ones!! Click here to see all the kimonos

Happy Monday! 21 weeks already...wow!

Today, my dad asked me what I was doing at this time during my last pregnancy, and it got me thinking. My pregnancies have been so different - thank God.

During my last pregnancy, at 21 weeks I had been on bedrest for one week and we were all holding our breaths, holding out for viability at 24 weeks. You can read my 21 week blog post from my first pregnancy here.

It's pretty emotional and surreal thinking back on all that we went through last time around. I am so incredibly thankful for how well this pregnancy is going. I seriously can't stop thanking God for letting me experience a "normal" pregnancy! I pray that it continues going as smoothly as it has thus far!

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On Saturday night, Ben and I had a date night! It was a blast. We went to this super fancy restaurant and it was just a really special, fun night. Our dinner reservation was for 8:45pm and it was a serious STRUGGLE to stay awake, haha. But we made it and had such a wonderful time. I love that man so much!

My dress is from Ingrid & Isabel, but it's no longer in stock. Click here for a similar one, and click here for a similar sleeveless version. I also LOVE this one.

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Now for my 21 week survey:

How far along: 21 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  I have no idea! I have my next doctor's appointment next week, so I'll update then!

Maternity clothes? Yes! Pinkblush and Target are my go-to!

Stretch marks? Yeeeessss...trying to embrace them! haha

Sleep: I've been a bit restless, so not great!

Best moment this week: Date night!!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: So much! :)

Food cravings: Muffins! Baked goods!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, getting big!

Gender: Boy! Yay!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out still.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! But also grumpy. haha

Symptoms: RESTLESS LEG - it's so bad!! I didn't have this with James, and it is so so so very annoying!! Spider veins, stretch marks, bigger boobs, heart burn, always thirsty, congested, lower back is sore

Thanks for reading!! See you back next Monday for my 22 week update!

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Mommy Monday: 20 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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I hope all of you mamas out there had a wonderful Mother's Day!

We headed to the family cabin in Montana and unplugged for a long weekend...it was so refreshing and nice. We spent time reading, hiking around, and breathing in the fresh mountain air. No phones, no internet, no e-mails, no work. Just being in the moment with each other.

I'm 20 weeks pregnant now ... half way through this pregnancy and I can hardly even believe it! This pregnancy is FLYING by! It's seriously going so fast, I kind of want time to slow down a little bit. We aren't planning on having any more children after this, so this is my last time being pregnant and it is bittersweet. I feel so blessed to be able to experience pregnancy - TWICE! And I feel so incredibly blessed and thankful that this pregnancy is going so smoothly!

Ok, can we just talk about spider veins for a quick sec?? Um, I have gotten SO MANY lately! I only got a few after my pregnancy with James, but this time around my legs (particularly my knee area) is covered with them! Oh the joys of pregnancy symptoms. I'm not complaining...like I said I'm really thankful for every single part of this experience. I'm more just throwing that out there for those of you who may be experiencing the same thing. I am covered with spider veins and ever-growing stretch marks. But hey, my boobs are bigger so there's that!!

I've been feeling the baby move so much over this past week! It's really fun! I can feel his kicks and rolls getting stronger and more substantial and I think we'll be able to feel them from the outside any day now.

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I'm soaking up every second with my sweet little James. I'm so excited for him to have a little brother. I know adding another baby to our family will only add to his life, rather than detract from it. But it is still a bit sad to think of him not being the only baby any more. I know it will be an adjustment for us all! I am so excited to see James as a big brother!! He'll be so sweet with the baby, I just know it.

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Here's this week's survey:

How far along: 20 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  To be honest, I've lost track. I'll update this next time I get weighed at the doctor!

Maternity clothes? Pretty much exclusively!

Stretch marks? Some new ones...all of my stretch marks are around my belly button.

Sleep: Fine!

Best moment this week: Playing in the mountains with Ben and James.

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Yes, feeling a lot lately.

Food cravings: Mexican food, fruit

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes, getting big!

Gender: A boy! Hooray!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out still.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!

Symptoms: Spider veins, stretch marks, bigger boobs, heart burn, always thirsty, congested, lower back is sore

Have a great week, friends!

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I know I look horrendous in this picture, but I just LOVE how James loves giving me kisses! He is seriously the sweetest!!!

I know I look horrendous in this picture, but I just LOVE how James loves giving me kisses! He is seriously the sweetest!!!

Mommy Monday: Gender Reveal! 19 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two

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It's a...BOY!

We are SO excited to finally be able to publicly announce that we're expecting our second little boy! We couldn't be more thrilled! Seriously, the idea of being a boy mom makes me so so incredibly happy! I am really excited that James will have a little brother to grow up with and for them to be able to play together!

We actually found out that we are having a boy at my 12 week ultrasound, so we've known for awhile. But I really wanted to wait until after our anatomy scan (which we just had a few hours ago!) to double check and confirm before we went ahead and told everyone. Just in case it actually turned out to be a girl, haha. 12 weeks is super early to be able to tell from an ultrasound, but the technician and the doctor were both pretty darn sure that they were seeing a boy. ;)

Even so, it was a relief to have the gender confirmed today at our anatomy scan!

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Speaking of the anatomy scan, everything went so well! Baby boy number two looked perfect and is growing just as he should be! My cervix is still closed up tight and long, just as IT should be. They even told me that I don't have to come in to have my cervix checked any more! I only need to come in if I have something I'm worried about or if I have new symptoms, so I'm basically a normal pregnant person now! Yippee!

I am so relieved and thankful that everything is well with the baby and with me! Such a nice change from our anatomy scan with James!! Read about our anatomy scan for my first pregnancy here.

Ok, on to this week's survey:

How far along: 19 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  Up around 11lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes! They are the comfiest!

Stretch marks? My old ones are looking so rough, haha

Sleep: It's been ok!

Best moment this week: Playdate with James' friends from music class!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Yes! So fun

Food cravings: Fruit, frozen blueberries

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes! People are starting to ask if I'm expecting...which means I'm at the point where there is no question that I'm pregnant!

Gender: Yes!! Another sweet boy!!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out still. This really freaks Ben out, haha.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! And emotional!

Symptoms: Acne, heart burn, bloody nose, congestion, light-headedness, round ligament pain.

Thank you all for the continued prayers and good vibes! So grateful for a smooth pregnancy thus far!

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Mommy Monday: 18 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Happy Monday!

I'm 18 weeks, two days pregnant and feeling great! I had an ultrasound last thursday to check my cervix since having the cerclage, and all looks perfect. My cervix was still over 4 cm and completely closed! I'm so thankful! I also got the clear to begin (gentle) workouts again... woohoo!

We go in next monday for our anatomy scan, so they will check my cervix again at that appointment. With my last pregnancy, we discovered my shortened cervix (only 1.2cm!!) at my 20 week anatomy scan, so it will be nice to pass that point in this pregnancy with no complications! Read about my experience during my last pregnancy here.

We also will be confirming the gender at the anatomy scan, so expect our gender reveal next week! We are so excited to FINALLY share what we are having with all of you! Go ahead and leave your guess in the comments: Boy or Girl?!?! :)

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It feels so nice to be able to start easing into some workouts again! I've been doing prenatal workouts from Knocked Up Fitness... click here to learn more about the workouts. They are amazing for pregnant mamas! Definitely check it out!

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I love this comfy, cute maternity top that I got from Target recently! I linked it and a few similar tops below!

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Alright, that's all for now! Here is this week's survey:

How far along: 18 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  As of my last week, up 10lbs since beginning of pregnancy.

Maternity clothes? Yes! Constantly on the hunt for cute, affordable pieces!

Stretch marks? Still no new ones yet!

Sleep: Super congested so it hasn't been great this week!

Best moment this week: Seeing the new baby flip and move around on the ultrasound last thursday!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Yes! The past few days I've felt a ton of movement!

Food cravings: Doughnuts. :) And Mexican food.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes!

Gender: Yes, announcing next week!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out. haha

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy/ Moody/ Emotional ... you name it!

Symptoms: Acne, round ligament pain has really amped up, tight muscles, tired, irritable, shortness of breath, forgetful...I'm a mess, haha.

See you back here next Monday, friends! Be sure to check back because we'll be announcing the GENDER!! HOORAY!

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Mommy Monday: 17 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Sorry that this post is going up a day late! This past week/weekend was packed!

Ben was at training for his new position at work, so James and I stayed with my parents all last week. We went to the tulip fields, and also visited a really cute park with a little farm. James LOVED seeing all of the animals! He was so adorable - he kept going and sitting down next to the chickens. And at the tulip fields, he had so much fun with all of the other little kids! He and the other little boys kept chasing each other and yelling in each other's faces. James had the time of his life, haha.

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We also had a fun play date with some of our friends from music class yesterday. I love watching James play with other kids! He is so adorable and I love watching him have fun and interact and explore!

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday - just my quick, monthly check. All was well! The baby's heartbeat sounded great and everything is going as it should be! On Thursday I have an ultrasound to check on my cervix. Prayers that there are no changes since I had the cerclage put in a few weeks ago!

Ok, I'll get to the survey in just a moment, but real quick: how beautiful is this dress?? You guys, it is not a maternity dress, but it works PERFECTLY with a bump! Win! And it comes in the most beautiful green floral print as well. Click here for the dress

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The best part is, this dress is UNDER $30!! And my shoes are only around $12! Click here for my shoes

Now for this week's survey:

How far along: 17 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss:  As of my doctor's appointment yesterday, up 10lbs since beginning of pregnancy.

Maternity clothes? Yes! But trying to find lots of non-maternity pieces that will work through pregnancy as well!

Stretch marks? My old ones are showing hardcore now!

Sleep: Not bad!

Best moment this week: Watching James sit with the chickens at the farm, and watching him run around with all the other little kids at the tulip fields!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Not much, but a few little thumps!

Food cravings: Junk food. Give me ALL the junk food.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really.

Have you started to show yet: Yes!

Gender: Yes, but still not announcing quite yet!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Half in, half out. haha

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy/ Moody/ Emotional

Symptoms: Acne, aches, tight muscles, tired, SHORT TEMPER, haha

Thanks for reading! See you back here next Monday, when I'll fill you in on the results of my ultrasound!

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Mommy Monday: 16 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Happy (very late) Mommy Monday!

Don't mind the above pictures - I realized today that I had no pictures to share from this past week, haha... so I had my mom take these of me real quick! This past week has been pretty uneventful, really. Which is good! Fine by me!! I want this pregnancy to be as uneventful and boring as possible!

Honestly, nothing really new to report. I'm feeling great! All recovered from my cerclage, although my lower back is really sore ever since I had it done.

James and I are staying at my parents' house this week because Ben is at a training thing for his new position at work. We have lots of fun things planned for this week and I can't wait to tell you all about them in next week's Mommy Monday post!

Here is a fun little comparison I did the other day. The first picture is one I took back in January around the time I got pregnant. I was trying on swimsuits for our trip to Hawaii. The second picture is about 16 weeks later. Kind of cool to see the change in such a short amount of time!

Right around when I got pregnant, and then about 16 weeks later!

Right around when I got pregnant, and then about 16 weeks later!

Oh! I also wanted to mention that lately James and I have been doing so many more crafts and fun learning activities together! I love letting him play with different materials and he's been practicing color and letter matching! Let me know if you would like me to share any of the crafts and projects that we do!

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Ok, onto this week's survey:

How far along: 16 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  I didn't weigh myself this week but I'm assuming around the same as last week, ~6 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes, some!

Stretch marks? No new ones yet! But my old ones are out in full glory, haha

Sleep: Fine! I have to get up quite a lot to pee, and my crazy dreams are back though.

Best moment this week: Watching James be the center of attention at music class! He has gotten so confident and is just thriving in that class, it's adorable! I'm so proud of him!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: A little bit, off and on!

Food cravings: Thai Food!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Vegetables :(

Have you started to show yet: Yes!

Gender: Yes, but still not announcing quite yet!

Labor Signs: Nope!

Belly Button in or out? Mostly in...starting to poke out on top though. So cute.

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy/ EMOTIONAL!!!!

Symptoms: Acne, weird dreams, having to pee all the time, constipation, congestion, back aches.

That's it for this week! Sorry it wasn't a very fun or exciting update, but as I said, that's fine with me!! No excitement please! Just a boring, standard, uneventful, safe, healthy pregnancy! See you back next Monday!

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Mommy Monday: 15 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two, Cerclage!

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Hi there, friends!

Friday I had my cerclage put in. I was so nervous for the surgery, even though it was planned this time and the whole thing was very relaxed. As of Friday, my cervix was still very long and normal looking, so that was great to hear, and I'm so glad that we did the cerclage before anything started changing or going south.

Even though I was super nervous, I also felt overwhelmed by a sense of peace and the knowledge that everything was going to be ok. It was such a great feeling - all of the prayers were really felt, so thank you to everyone sending them our way!

As I was waiting in the hospital room to be taken to the OR, I was overcome with emotions. I felt so incredibly thankful that I was able to have this surgery and that I was able to go through all of the scary hospital stuff in order to protect my new baby and keep it safe before anything went wrong.

Also, when I first checked in to the hospital, they sent me to the lab to get blood work done. I am a Certified Medical Assistant and have tons of experience drawing blood, but let me tell you - I HATE having my blood drawn. Like, HATE IT. I get so anxious and nervous and sweaty and so I was dreading having lab work done. Well, I got to the lab and check in, and the phlebotomist came out and said, "sorry to disappoint you, but you don't get to have a blood draw today!" I WAS SO HAPPY!! Already my second cerclage experience was going amazingly! haha

Then, I met with the anesthesiologist to discuss options and a game plan. With my first cerclage, I had a spinal, where I was numbed from my waist down and couldn't feel a thing. But I was wide awake and totally aware of what was going on and so stressed and nervous the whole time. The anesthesiologist this time said he could put me under with general anesthesia, or do a spinal. Although, he said that there was a nation-wide shortage of the medication they usually use for a spinal, so he'd have to use a different medication that takes a couple of hours longer to wear off. I told him whatever he thought was best for the baby. He decided to do the spinal, but said he'd give me something to help me relax too.

Well, whatever he gave me, the last thing I remember is being wheeled into the OR, rolled onto my side on the operating table, and the OR nurse rubbing my back as I *think* they gave me the spinal. The next thing I remember is being wheeled into recovery. I asked the anesthesiologist, "did I just fall asleep on my own or did you put me under?!" and he laughed and said, "I helped you out a bit!" haha I was SO CONFUSED!! I thought I had slept through the whole thing! I remember nothing! What I now think happened is that he gave me a sedative, so I probably was awake but just so relaxed and don't remember? I don't know, haha But it weirds me out to think that I was maybe chatting away saying who knows what during the surgery and don't remember ANYTHING!! HAHA

But, I am totally fine with whatever they did because it wasn't scary at all since I wasn't aware of what was happening and I don't remember a thing. I just remember going into the OR and leaving the OR, haha. Very pleasant!

I then had to wait a few hours for the spinal to wear off and to be able to move/feel my legs again. Then I got to go home. The whole thing was very easy and really no big deal. SUCH a different experience than the cerclage I had with my first pregnancy!! I'm so thankful for how everything went the day of my surgery and for my wonderful husband and my parents for taking such good care of me and of James during all of this!

Now, I'm 15 weeks pregnant, and everything is going well and I'm praying that the rest of this pregnancy stays as normal and uneventful as it has been thus far!!

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I've just been taking it easy the past couple of days. I'm feeling great, just sore. My back hurts a bit from the spinal, but it's getting better every day. I'm waiting on a call back from my doctor today to give me the "OK" to start lifting James and resuming my previous activity level. I'm dying to get outside and go for a walk around the neighborhood!

Yesterday afternoon I started having Braxton Hicks which I had basically MOST of my pregnancy with James (I think I may have irritable uterus), but since they started happening so soon after my cerclage I was of course freaking out a little. But they stopped and there was never any pain or bleeding so I'll mention it to my doctor when I talk to her today, but I'm pretty confident it's nothing to be concerned about. Braxton Hicks are oh-so-fun and I'm just preparing myself for  a lot of them over the next few months!

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Time for this week's survey!

How far along: 15 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss:  6 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes, some!

Stretch marks? No new ones yet!

Sleep: Pretty good at the moment actually!

Best moment this week: Watching James and his little friend on their play date!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Yes! I've felt a few thumps over the past few days!

Food cravings: Pineapple, crunch wrap supreme, doughnuts :p

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really!

Have you started to show yet: Yes!

Gender: Yes, but still not announcing quite yet!

Labor Signs: Some Braxton Hicks over the past day or two since the cerclage.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy/ EMOTIONAL!!!!

Symptoms: Congested, round ligament pain, emotional, peeing all the time, haha.

Thank you, again, for all of the prayers and positivity being sent our way! Please keep them coming!

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Mommy Monday: 14 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Click here for my dress (Comes in so many colors and under $100! It's my favorite dress ever!) // Click here for my shoes // Click here for my necklace (It's customized with James' name on it - you can get any name put on it! I love it so much!)

I hope you all had the happiest Easter!

We had such a fun weekend! Saturday we had a lazy morning and we all watched Homeward Bound together in our jammies and it was just such a nice, cozy day. Yesterday, James and I went to church with my parents. Then later, Ben James, Gunner, and I headed to my parents' house for dinner with extended family and an Easter egg hunt for little James. It was James' first Easter egg hunt and he did SO well!! He loved it! My cousins set it up for him and it was the cutest most fun thing!

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I was seriously dying over James' Easter outfit and how CUTE he looked!! His little tie was just the most adorable thing. I want to dress him up in fancy clothes every day!! His shirt is my favorite color - mint! And his slacks are a bit big so they will fit him for all of our events coming up through the summer!

I'm also so obsessed with the dress I wore - it's not a maternity dress. I barely squeezed myself into the dress and had to have Ben zip me up, haha but it worked with my little bump!! It's just the most feminine dress with such pretty detailing and I love the length. It's very classy and elegant and perfect for any occasion. It comes in a lot of colors and is under $100 which is SUCH a great price for the quality!! (Click here for my dress)

So, I am officially in the Second Trimester now!! Hooray!!

This week, I'm getting my cerclage, so please send all your thoughts and prayers and good vibes my way! I'm pretty nervous for the surgery and just want to get it over with!

Oh also, I found the BEST maternity jeans ever...seriously. If you're pregnant, GET THEM!

They are really comfortable (like leggings), and are super cute and actually fit well unlike a lot of maternity jeans. They come in several colors/ washes. Click here for the jeans!

Now, for this week's survey:

How far along: 14 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: 6 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes! Like these maternity jeans I've been raving about!! (Click here for jeans)

Stretch marks? No new ones!

Sleep: Not great - SO congested!!

Best moment this week: James doing his Easter egg hunt! And watching James during the church service yesterday! He's so sweet!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: I *think* a few little flutters - but none that I'm absolutely positive about yet. I have an anterior placenta this time, so it will probably be harder for me to feel movement until later on.

Food cravings: Pineapple!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really!

Have you started to show yet: Oooooh yes. ;)

Gender: We know! But we're not announcing yet! ;)

Labor Signs: No.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? Off! Wearing a place holder ring now! :p

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!

Symptoms: My weird dreams are gone, yay! Now symptoms include congestion, weakness, shortness of breath, and moodiness.

Have a great week, friends!!

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Mommy Monday: 13 Weeks Pregnant With Number Two!

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Happy Mommy Monday!

As I mentioned in last week's post (read last week's post here), I met with Maternal Fetal Medicine on Wednesday for a "pre-op consult" because I am getting another cerclage this pregnancy. You can read about my whole scary experience with finding out that I needed an emergency cerclage during my first pregnancy here.

This time around I was told right away: "Once a cerclage, always a cerclage". So, I got in the mindset. Last time around was so scary and unexpected and urgent and complicated. THIS time will be calm, planned, relaxed, no big deal, and not *necesssary*, just a precaution. As of my appointment on Wednesday, my cervix was still over 4cm which is GREAT - super long. At my 20 week scan during my first pregnancy, my cervix was down to 1.2cm, which is extremely short. I was SO relieved that my cervix was still so long at this week's scan!

So, basically, the doctor gave me two options:

1. Get a cerclage done in the next week or two as a precaution. That way, we make sure the cerclage is done under calm and controlled circumstances and that my cervix is super long and we wont have to worry about it the rest of the pregnancy.

2. Monitor my cervix every two weeks and if is starts to shorten, put a cerclage in.

With option two, I potentially would not need a cerclage at all if my cervix does not shorten - which sounds super appealing! BUT, my cervix could possibly shorten super quickly before it is caught and I could lose the baby. And a really short cervix like I had before makes a cerclage a lot more risky (ie, bleeding, puncturing the bladder, etc...) So, I decided to just do the cerclage now. I'll be scheduling it for in the next few weeks, so I'll keep you all updated on that!

Definitely not looking forward to it, BUT this time around will hopefully be a lot more relaxed and pleasant. :)

In other exciting news: WE FOUND OUT THE GENDER!!

I'm not going to say much more about this yet because we aren't going to publicly announce for awhile. The ultrasound tech asked me if I was going to be doing genetic testing, and I told her the ONLY reason I would do it would be to find out the gender sooner. She said, "Well, I can just look and see if I can tell" and I was like, oh YES. haha And she could. And the doctor confirmed. It's REEEAAALLLY early - like, usually you can't tell on an ultrasound until at least 18 weeks and I was only 12. But they were PRETTY confident. :)

So exciting. I can't wait to announce to you all when the time comes! Go ahead and post your guess in the comments below: Is baby Cohen number two a BOY or a GIRL??

Also, I have gotten a few requests about items that I think are necessary vs. unnecessary for a new baby. I'll try to put together a blog post soon going over all of this! If you have any specific questions feel free to leave them below and I'll answer them!

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Yesterday, Ben, James, Gunner, and I went for a drive into the National Forest where we live. We went exploring and Ben shot his bow and it was SUCH a beautiful day! Days like that make me so thankful for this growing family of mine! I am truly blessed!

Who else is doing the Knocked Up Fitness prenatal program with me?? Comment below and let me know so that we can hold each other accountable! And be sure to follow me on Instagram (@annamcohenblog) so we can check in with eachother! Click here to learn more about the Knocked Up Fitness Prenatal Program!

Ok, now for the weekly survey:

How far along: 13 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Last Wednesday I was 116lbs at the doctor's office - but that's with clothes and shoes on. When I weigh myself at home I usually don't wear clothes, so that's where I got my pre-pregnancy weight of 107lbs. From here on out, I'll just use the weight from the doctor to make it easier and since I don't have a scale any more anyways to weigh myself at home. :)

Maternity clothes? A few pieces! Maternity leggings and pajamas are LIFE!

Stretch marks? No new ones, but I feel like my old ones are stretching back out. BOO!

Sleep: Oh my goodness, CAN'T GET COMFORTABLE. haha I'm scared. If I'm having trouble getting comfortable this early on, I don't know what I'm going to do come third trimester! Also, the insanely weird, horrible, detailed, REAL-feeling dreams are just getting worse! haha You guys, they are so bizarre!!!

Best moment this week: Hiking with my family in the mountains!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Movement: Not yet!

Food cravings: Crunch wrap supremes and sub sandwiches.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really!

Have you started to show yet: Yes, and I feel like I popped even more over the past day or two!

Gender: We know! But we're not announcing yet! ;)

Labor Signs: No.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On, but I'm going to take them off and put on my place holder ring soon because I already notice them getting super tight and it makes me claustrophobic.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy and emotional!!

Symptoms: Weird dreams, dry skin, acne, tired, congested, aching pelvis,

I'll see you guys back here next Monday for another update! And check back later this week for another non-mommy-monday post!

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Baby After Bedrest? My Thoughts On Baby Number Two

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Warning: This will be a long one, guys! It's probably the most personal blog post I've ever written.

If you've been following my blog for awhile, you know that my pregnancy with James turned out to be a really challenging and scary one, leading up to an even more frightening birth experience.

To summarize, I was given an emergency cerclage and put on bedrest at 20 weeks due to having a shortened cervix. Being on bedrest for the next 16+ weeks was the most challenging experience of my life, both mentally and physically. It was 16 weeks of being terrified for my baby's safety, my body deteriorating, and being bored and antsy and...it was just a really really emotional and hard time.

I ended up having my cerclage removed at around 36 weeks and I was taken off of bedrest at that time. At 39 weeks 3 days, I went in for my weekly check in with my doctor and he noted that my right leg was waaay more swollen than my left leg. He said he wanted to have me induced and to check for a blood clot. I was sent right over to the hospital where I was admitted and was told I would be given an ultrasound on my leg to check for blood clots. The doctor on call who would deliver James came in and basically told me that there was a good chance I would die suddenly and that she was very very concerned. When I told her I was scared she said "I think that's reasonable, I am too." Um. Without going on and on too much here, what AWFUL bedside manner. It REALLY messed me up, to put it lightly. I burst into tears and was horrified (read more details here). Bottom line, I DID NOT have a blood clot. They went ahead and broke my water and I went into labor and delivered James without any further complications. (Click here to read our birth story)

I haven't opened up too much about the mental aspects of how all of this affected me. I'm not sure I really want to. I have shared with my close family, because I DEFINITELY had (and still do have) a lot to work through. It was a traumatic experience from the moment I was told my cervix didn't look right at the anatomy scan. Then after all of that and being told I would die, I was thrust into the throes of new motherhood which is a huge life-altering experience on its own, let alone after all I had been through. I still struggle with everything that happened. I'm scared. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm more emotional. I'm more aware of how very quickly life can be taken away, and how fleeting and fragile and precious life is. I'm still healing emotionally, and probably will be for a long time. My experience, without trying to be too dramatic, has forever changed me - has forever changed my mind - and it will haunt me for the rest of my life in some form. BUT I ended up with the most beautiful little boy, and I am absolutely so grateful for how everything turned out!!

At first, Ben and I were pretty scared to even think about the possibility of having another baby. We both want more kids, but we are also SO SO SO VERY happy with just James. James is EVERYTHING. He is our perfect blessing - healthy, happy, strong, whole, beautiful, smart... we are so thankful for him and for the fact that we were blessed with a son and that we all came out of that pregnancy and labor and delivery SAFE. We are so thankful to be parents, and we thought "why mess with what we have?" Because what we have is perfect. Why risk having to go through that again? Why risk me dying? Why risk losing a baby if all didn't go well? I was suffering from PTSD and so so unbelievably scared to even consider doing that again.

As time went by, and James turned a year old, I began to feel a pang of baby fever. My little boy was becoming a toddler and babyhood was slipping away so quickly. I pictured having another little one close in age with James for him to play with. Ben and I talked, and decided that I should sit down with my doctor and talk about if it was a good idea for us to get pregnant again, or if it was NOT recommended. We didn't want to be selfish by getting pregnant again just because we wanted another kid, and then put the new baby at risk because of a shortened cervix, or risk me dying, or upset James' perfect, happy, charmed little life.

I met with my doctor and laid out all of my thoughts, concerns, fears, questions... he looked at me, smiled and said "have a baby!" He explained that bottom-line: I DID NOT HAVE A BLOODCLOT. Bottom-line: Nothing happened to the baby. Bottom-line: Everything turned out FINE and I made it nearly to my due date, and maybe would have longer if they hadn't moved things along. Bottom-line: we will NEVER know if I even NEEDED a cerclage and bedrest at all, because my cervix never changed and I maybe would have made it full term even without all of those precautions. Bottom-line: I may not even have any issues with my cervix next time around. My doctor said, "If you were my wife, we'd be having a baby. Hopefully I'll see you back here soon pregnant!"

I was relieved, but still skeptical. My doctor recommended that I meet with Maternal Fetal Medicine, since high risk pregnancies and all of that are their specialty. So I did. I met with ANOTHER doctor from MFM, and he basically told me the EXACT same things that my doctor had. This doctor told me that if I get pregnant again, I wont be put on bedrest because it has been found to do more harm than good in most cases, because of inactivity and how it can increase the risk of blood clots, and also how bad it is for a person mentally. He said I also wouldn't have a cerclage again. He explained that there is no scientific evidence that a cerclage or bedrest do any good or make any difference. He told me to get pregnant.

A number of emotions went through my head after my meetings with the doctors. I was relieved and excited. I felt a bit angry that I had been through a cerclage and bedrest for maybe no reason, but then quickly I felt guilt for feeling angry because God knows I would have done ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING in the entire world to keep my son safe inside of me until he was able to survive in the world. I felt confused. I felt a LOT of skepticism. These doctors were not the doctor that did my cerclage and put me on bedrest and monitored me up until I was around 30 weeks pregnant - did they REALLY know??

Ben and I have discussed everything at length. Most of all, we don't want anything to negatively impact James. But having received such adamant and confident assurance and encouragement from two separate doctors, we feel very encouraged and excited that we have the option of trying for baby number two, if we choose to do so.

A lot of prayer is going on over here. Prayer for guidance and for strength and for the right decision to be made and for God's will to be made known. We will see what happens. We will see what we decide to do. But for now, I am clinging to the words of each of my doctors, telling me that I have to remember that EVERYTHING TURNED OUT TO BE OK. My son was born full-term and healthy, and I did not have a blood clot. I wouldn't be considered high risk going into another pregnancy.

I'm ok. James is ok. I am ok to get pregnant again.

But I'm still scared.

So we'll see. But that is where we are at. We have been given the go-ahead by two different doctors, and Ben and I would both love to have more children. But we'd also be SO SO SO fine with just having our bright, sweet, shining little boy! I am an only child and I loved it.

Whatever we decide to do and whatever happens, I pray that it is God's will.

So that's where we're at!

Have any of you had another child after having a scary or hard pregnancy and/or birth experience? I'd really love to hear your story if you have.

 

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